Burden
This whole job hunting malarky is almost driving me loopy. The fact that it took me a while to understand the direction i want to take didnt help matters much. I tried dabbling in recruitment and sales, although i found after many phonecalls and an afternoon at an assessment centre that it wasnt for me. I syphon through endless websites, looking for anything under “graduate” label, but to find that there are a hundred vacancies with graduate rectruitment, and everything else requires a 2:2. So now i think ive found my calling, or at least something that ill be good at.
You would think i feel good, i think i kind of feel better, but i cant get that niggling feeling that im being a burden upon everyone. To count theres Emily, my supportive girlfriend who loves me as much as i do her. The fact that i miss her and she misses me and living hundreds of miles apart is a burden. The train journeys are expensive and i wish i didnt have to beg steal or borrow. Which leads onto my parents. They lend me even more money (of which i owe them alot) to go see emily, or go to london with. Purely for job interviews the london part, but still ive got nothing, and the Benefits agency isnt helping that area. And then of course andrew, i dont want to continually crash at his everytime i get an (unsucessful) interviews. Also him being allergic to my cats, i run the rick of killing him everytime i visit.
So the only thing i can hope for is these agencies to come through, to start my career, and actually earning to pay back some debts and not be such a layabout and general pain.
March 11, 2008 at 9:57 am